Writing/Dreaming/Praying/Planning

So its been a little while since my last post, so I thought It quickly update you all on whats been happening....

Over the month of June I gave myself the task of writing one poem a weak, which will all go towards a potential project at the end of summer. Week one, was just amazing! I found a cute little coffee shop in town, had my notes, bible, I researched, prayed and just wrote everything on my heart. Folks who were keeping me accountable gave me feedback which then follow with more edits, etc. What I did not factor in - REST, LESS CAFFEINE, REST AND ERRR MORE REST. Week two came round and I was so overwhelmed with the pressure of the second piece being good, if not better than the last, I was trying to force something that just didn't want to happen. The competitor in me was drowning in all these unrealistic expectations and pride made me focus on my limitations instead of a limitless God.

I'm quick to open my mouth. I find it hard to be still and listen, however through the help of close friends and personal convictions, it wasn't long before I realised, God wanted my attention much more than I wanted to execute a writing task. During week 3, I decided to take a break from writing to listen, pray and be in community. I realised that my frustrations weren't just about being faithful in completing a task but also proving to other people and myself that I could do it. The following weeks were so beautiful, I just enjoyed listening to Gods heart and being obedient through His word. Dont get me wrong, I still have hella deadlines but I'd rather have a few healthy poems than a bundle of material with no purpose or direction.

So, with one poem done, I'm still wrestling with the need to force creativity. Below are a few tips that help me overcome this.

1. Do things that inspire/ get your creative juices going. I love being on public transport, watching films, galleries, theatre shows, etc.

2. NEVER WORK FROM HOME - I am so slow in the morning and just won't get anything done. Plus, I live with family so the house is always busy. Find a quiet spot, set a schedule that works for you. Just like a job. Dont forget to factor in breaks and food otherwise you will be of no use to anyone

3. Have a few real ones to keep tabs on you - They can be artists in your field, church family, peeps you know will not sleep on you...literally. Give them your schedule, goals, and deadlines, that way you are completely clear on what your plans are.

4. Involve God in the process, not just when your struggling - Remember, He ain't stupid. Trust that if He's given you the vision, He will most certainly enable and equip you to do it.  

5. Don't be so hard on yourself. - Its important to push for excellence but make sure your heart is focused on the cross. It's not about you. (This is a real struggle of mine!)

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. (James 1:5)

July is here (what da heck!!) and so far its been chill. However to do list is growing so I got to get myself into gear. In less than a week I'm flying out to Chicago for the Legacy Discipleship conference. I went for the first time last year with some friends and couldn't get enough. I took part in the poety slam and won!  Im still convinced its cuz of my accent lol. This year I've been asked if I wanted to take part in the 'Storytellers' event this year...I was like "errrr...yer!". Very excited to share some of this new material. After that I fly out to Portland, Oregon for the CANVAS conference. I watched it online last year and was blown away. I cannot wait to sit at the feet of some of the most innovative Christians I know. All in all, this trip is a chance for me to listen, & learn.

Prayers would be much appreciated. I would also encourage any fellowship to support and pray for the creatives in your church. We need it!